|December 12, 1999
Why Is This Woman Smiling?
(The correct answer, of course, is "All of the Above.")
I love the Internet. Have I mentioned that lately? I really really do. If the Internet were a person, I would be baking it a fruitcake or hand-crafting it a milk-carton candle or knitting it a pair of lumpy slippers right now.
I'm not finished with ALL of my shopping yet: I still have a handful of family and friends to take care of, and I'm holding off on David's gift until I'm in TicTac. (We're spending Christmas apart once again this year, btw. I fly to TicTac the morning of the 23rd, to spend the holiday with my Tots and assorted other family members ... he'll stay here in California with his family. It sucks, but that's just the way it is. We'll *celebrate* when I get home.)
But the bulk of my "shopping" is out of the way. And for somebody who can usually be found picking frantically through empty K-Mart *Sale Item* bins at 4 p.m. on December 24th, every year ... that's saying a lot. I can spend the next couple of weeks blissfully ignoring the holidays, the way God intended.
And if I have the Internet to thank for this newfound peace of mind ... then that's more than fine with me.
Ho ho ho.
And what do *I* want for Christmas this year, you ask?
blurb #1 will
am i sounding cynical?
jaded? exhausted? cranky? seriously deficient in *christmas spirit?* i
don't actually feel that way. but more and more i'm
that the big noisy messy expensive stressful christmases of years past
-- with me trying to do everything and be
BUY everything and make everything martha-stewart-perfect -- were
worst christmases of all, for EVERYBODY concerned ... and, conversely,
the years when i just sat back and allowed christmas to take care
itself [like the year daughter #1 was born, when i was long on
sentiment and short on EVERYTHING else] were the best. i guess i'm just
enjoying the return of simplicity, this year. it gives me hope that
things like *sentiment* and *spirit* may return again too, someday.
self-important blurb #2 -- probably having something to do with the WEATHER: i'm finally beginning to realize that i may need to break down and buy a coat ... even here in *sunny* california. those nights when i'm standing around in the "concrete canyon" waiting for david to pick me up, after work, are getting downright ARCTIC. [who knows? maybe i'll even hafta buy a pair of ISOTONERS ...]
special *howdy* to: the INCREDIBLY NON-HELPFUL salesnerd at the Emeryville CompUSA store yesterday ... who simply proved my point that shopping "up close and personal" is NOT for me, this year. [and more of that heartfelt *thank you thank you thank you* stuff to my INCREDIBLY WONDERFUL LIFE PARTNER, who helped me get the Tots' Christmas computer ordered yesterday, finally.]
where i'll ask a *relevant* question:
i didn't even
have to pay her: " ...I just
wanted to let you know that you are
absolutely the best writer in the whole world...I just read your
conversation with god. I laughed and cried. I love you very much and I
just wanted to let you know that.
profound thought of the day: